As Erykah Badu sings, I’ve been having this on my mind for a long time.

Today on Facebook, an indie artist made a post that provoked me to express myself in a way I feel comfortable with sharing. (The discomfort being how vulnerable this makes me in admitting something that I’m afraid of being true.)

How do you handle the idea/appearance that your book isn’t as good as you wanted it to be. I’ve had two successful Kickstarters for my book because of the relationships that I have and enjoy with fellow comic fans who were excited for me when I revealed this side of myself. So they backed my comic and took home copies.

And then a field of crickets could be heard peacefully chirping their songs of love.

I want to make a piece of work that people like, and are fascinated by, and will talk about. That they will get into the characters, the humor, and get invested. Across the board. In droves. But lately, someone learns I have a comicbook and wants to read it, and when I give it to them, they vanish. And my brain tells me that they didn’t like it, it didn’t wow them, but they don’t want to tell me that.

To which, I can understand because hey, you like what you like — but I do struggle with the frustration of missing the mark that I’m aiming for. I’m very interested in your thoughts. Of course, it could be that everyone else’s books are fantastic and mine are not, so I’m the only one experiencing this, but I’d love to hear from others anyway, and just how you manage these emotions & expectations.

Thanks in advance.